Anyone with an illness knows that you will have those who believe you and those who don't. That is the case with me. I am so lucky to have a great support system. Even though most of my family and friends are hundreds of miles away, they have been there for me the best they could. They have listened to me cry, complain, and be angry. They have offered to come if I ever needed them here with me and are checking on me constantly. I will always love them for that. Even people I don't know or who I haven't talked to in years have shown their support. It truly is amazing. I have gotten closer to some friends through all of this and been shown who truly cares. I have even found friends in some that I have never even met before. I appreciate every single one of you.
My biggest supporter has been my husband. He has been to every appointment, picked up my medicine, drove me around since I am unable to do so. He has been going to work all day and then coming home and taking care of me, our son, and the house. He will stop at the store before coming home for whatever little thing it is we need without a single complaint. He will bring me flowers on my bad days or take care of our son to allow me to rest. I couldn't ask for anyone better. Even though I know he is tired, he won't admit it and just keeps going. He makes sure that I have everything I need before thinking about himself. He is in the Army, and for those of you who know that life, know how stressful it is and then to add all my health issues to it. I am so lucky that I found such a great man, so early in my life, that stands beside me. He is so determined to get the answers we need. Go to specialists, do this, or do that. When I feel I have given up hope, he is there to keep me going. He keeps track of everything that I can't sometimes remember. He talks to doctors when I am unable to do so. I appreciate every last thing he is doing and I will forever love him for all of this. I have no clue how I will ever repay him for everything he does. I know that I will be with this man until my last day on earth.
To the ones who choose not to believe the pain and struggles I am dealing with, forget them. I got angry for a while but what good is that going to do. If they don't want to believe me or say I am just out for drugs or whatever, let them live a day in my shoes. I can no longer go around worrying what they think. From now on, I am only going to let them push me to get all the diagnoses I need and rub it in their faces. All that matters now is that the ones who truly matter have my side and those who don't, I don't need them in my life.
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